I have had
another interesting experience regarding my spiritual growth. I had a session
with a friend named Margaret, an angelic healer.
Most
recently, I was hoping that Margaret could help me unlock any emotional blocks
that were preventing me from responding to the Advanced Cell Training program I
tried that I took a break from last July. The training program offered me the
hope of recovery from the MS in my life.
My wish did
not come true. We did not find any answers to healing this disease. She did come
up with a different answer that seems to make more sense, as I have long
suspected.
Margaret
believes in past lives. During our session she guided me to see the life I
lived during the Civil War. I saw myself as an eight-year-old girl with blonde
curls (just like my niece) hiding in a corner watching chaos in the town around
me. I had an awful pressure in my chest as I saw the way people were treating
each other. Women and African-Americans were being verbally and physically
abused, and no one was doing anything about it, as far as I could see. At that
young age, I couldn't find the words to speak against the way people were
interacting.
I grew up to
become a teacher (just like my current life). I found that I could use my
position to educate children, our future leaders, about the importance of
treating others with kindness and respect.
Margaret
pointed out that the life I’m living with MS is teaching kindness and
compassion to many people. All of my fabulous caregivers use patience and
compassion to help me every day. The students I once taught hopefully learned
from my example as I treated others in the way I think everyone should be
treated. I believe I carry the same example with me wherever I go. And people
pay more attention to me because of my physical condition, so my example stands
out in the crowd.
The biggest
idea that I am trying to assimilate is that the disease I have does not need to
be fixed. The circumstances of my life serve a purpose.
Margaret
says that our soul chooses each life to further our spiritual experience. My
physically limited life spurs me to focus on my spirituality. With every
difficulty I pray and search for deeper understanding and comfort. I have come
far in the expansion of my mind and spirit, much further than I might have
without this reason to search.
As much as I
do not want it, this life experience is very significant. I must follow the
path in front of me. Now, if I can remember to keep this perspective when I
face daily frustrations, I may feel comforted and better able to handle my
anger, sadness and fear. It will take some practice.
I am so
grateful to have God, my family and friends to support me every step of the
way.
Thank you
for listening. Knowing that you are out there helps to make me feel better about
the life I am leading.
